Sophie sounded frightened.
Not angry.
Not triumphant.
Frightened.
That mattered.
"If Julian told you I knew about the baby," I said, "then he lied."
There was a long pause.
"He told me you were upset at first."
"I didn't know you existed."
"He said you had accepted that you probably couldn't have children."
My throat tightened.
"My doctors never told me that."
"I know."
The way she said it stopped me.
"What do you mean?"
"I've learned a lot in the last twenty-four hours."
I leaned against the café booth where I had gone after calling in sick to work. Around me, people were ordering coffee and talking about ordinary things. A spoon struck a ceramic cup nearby. Someone laughed near the window.
My life had split in two, and nobody around me knew.
"What did he tell you about our marriage?" I asked.
Sophie hesitated.
"That you were basically separated."
I stared at the street.
"Three weeks ago, Julian took me out for our tenth anniversary."
Silence.
"He bought me a necklace. He talked about our future. He asked whether I wanted to continue fertility treatment."
"Oh God."
"He told you we were separated?"
"Yes."
"When?"
"Last December."
I wrote the date down.
One of his unexplained trips.
"How long have you been seeing him?"
"Almost eighteen months."
My pen stopped.
Eighteen months.
I looked at the eleven business trips listed on my notebook.
The first suspicious one suddenly seemed less suspicious.
It seemed obvious.
"What else did he tell you?"
"He said you knew he was seeing someone."
I let out a quiet breath.
"Of course he did."
"He said your relationship had become more like friendship."
I almost smiled.
"That's a very convenient story."
"I believed him."
"Why?"
"Because I wanted to."
That answer was painful precisely because it was honest.
Then Sophie told me something else.
She had heard Julian speaking with his mother in German.
They had discussed documents.
She said Julian had brought papers to her apartment and asked her to sign them.
"What kind of papers?"
"He said they concerned the baby's medical insurance."
"Did you sign?"
"No."
"Why not?"
"Because your name was on the last page."
I sat straighter.
"My name?"
"Claire Bennett."
"What exactly did the page say?"
"I don't remember. It was legal language."
"Do you still have the papers?"
"No. Julian took them back."
"Why?"
"I told him I wanted a lawyer to review them."
That was the first thing Sophie had said that made me feel a flicker of respect.
"What happened?"
"He became angry."
"Violent?"
"No."
She paused.
"But his voice changed."
I knew what she meant.
Julian had several voices.
There was the warm husband who kissed my forehead.
The patient husband who held me after failed treatments.
The concerned husband who told me to rest.
And the man who appeared when something threatened his control.
That man didn't shout.
He became quiet.
"What else did he tell you?" I asked.
Sophie breathed slowly.
"He said you would eventually agree to everything."
"Why?"
"He said once you met the baby, you would become attached."
My stomach tightened.
"Attached?"
"Yes."
"He said you would get attached to the baby and wouldn't want to walk away."
I wrote that down too.
"What arrangement?"
"I don't know."
"Did he say when?"
"After the birth."
That bothered me.
Why after?
Why not now?
Then Sophie asked whether Julian had ever mentioned adoption.
I told her yes.
About a year earlier, Julian had suggested that we consider private adoption.
That had been shortly before the affair began.
Sophie went quiet.
"That's when we started seeing each other."
I stared at my notebook.
"What happened?"
"I became pregnant once before."
I looked up.
"When?"
"About seven months into our relationship."
She told me she had miscarried.
Despite everything, I felt sympathy.
"I'm sorry."
"Thank you."
Then her voice changed.
"Afterward, Julian told me the timing wasn't right."
I frowned.
"What did he mean?"
"He said next time things would be better organized."
The word stayed with me.
Organized.
Not hopeful.
Not happy.
Organized.
"Can you meet me?" I asked.
She hesitated.
"Julian doesn't want us to."
"I don't care what Julian wants."
A few seconds passed.
Then she gave me the name of a bakery.
We agreed to meet that afternoon.
Before hanging up, she apologized.
"I don't know if I can forgive you," I told her.
"I understand."
"But I think we both need to know what he's planning."
After the call ended, a message arrived from Julian.
Feeling better?
A second message followed.
Mom wants us over Friday.
Then:
Please don't make plans. She says she has something important to discuss with the family.
I stared at the screen.
Another family dinner.
Another room full of people who believed I was deaf whenever they switched languages.
I typed back:
Of course. I hope your mom isn't making that cabbage dish again.
His reply came almost immediately.
Haha. Don't worry. I'll protect you.
I read it twice.
Protect me.
I put the phone face down.
Then I began preparing.
The bakery was nearly empty when I arrived.
I chose a table where I could see the entrance.
At two minutes before two, Sophie walked in.
She looked younger than I had imagined, although not by much. She wore a cream sweater and maternity trousers. Her pregnancy was impossible to miss.
Five months.
My husband's child.
For six years, I had imagined my own body changing that way.
Now I was looking at another woman's stomach and wondering why the sight felt like grief and betrayal at the same time.
She sat across from me.
"Claire?"
"Yes."
"I've seen pictures of you."
My eyebrows lifted.
"From where?"
"Julian."
That answer unsettled me.
"What pictures?"
"Your anniversary trip. Christmas. Pictures from your house."
He had shown his mistress photographs of me.
Why?
"Why would he do that?"
"He wanted me to know what you looked like."
"Did he talk about me?"
"All the time."
I waited.
"He said you were kind."
I almost laughed.
"He told his mistress I was kind?"
"He said you were patient. Responsible. Good with children."
My skin prickled.
"Anything else?"
"He said you'd make a wonderful mother."
Neither of us spoke.
Then Sophie reached into her handbag.
"I brought something."
She placed a thick brown envelope on the table.
"You said Julian took the documents."
"He did."
"Then what is that?"
"Copies."
She explained that she had scanned the papers before Julian came back for them.
I opened the envelope.
There were fourteen pages.
Medical authorization.
Insurance information.
Temporary guardianship provisions.
Then I saw my full name.
Claire Elizabeth Bennett.
I read the paragraph beneath it.
The language was complicated, but the meaning was disturbing. Under certain conditions, legal care of the child could be transferred to Julian and his legal spouse.
Me.
My pulse climbed.
There was a blank signature line with my name printed beneath it.
"He wanted me to sign this?"
"Eventually."
"For what?"
"I don't know."
I turned another page.
A financial provision listed $250,000.
"What is this?"
"He called it a trust for the baby."
"Whose money?"
"He said his parents were providing it."
That didn't sound right.
Klaus and Helga were comfortable, but this was too much money to explain casually.
I reached the final page.
Three names were printed beneath signature lines.
Sophie Hartmann.
Julian Bennett.
Claire Bennett.
My name looked wrong there.
Like an intruder.
Then I noticed a faint indentation across the paper.
Someone had written on a sheet that had been placed over it.
"Do you have a pencil?"
Sophie handed me one.
I rubbed the side lightly across the page.
Words appeared.
After delivery.
Then:
Claire signs first.
Neither of us moved.
I photographed it.
I shaded again.
Another line emerged.
Do not tell C. until hospital.
My blood went cold.
"C."
"Claire," Sophie whispered.
I thought of Helga asking how far along Sophie was.
I thought of Klaus saying I would eventually find out.
I thought of Helga answering:
That can be managed.
Managed until when?
The hospital?
I gathered the documents.
"We need a lawyer."
Sophie nodded.
Then she looked at me with a strange expression.
"There is something else."
"What?"
Her eyes filled with tears.
"I don't think the baby is the secret."
I waited.
She lowered her voice.
"I think Julian did something to you before I ever became pregnant."
My fingers tightened around the papers.
"What are you talking about?"
"I don't know exactly."
"Then what do you know?"
She looked toward the bakery window.
"Your fertility treatments."
The room seemed to narrow around me.
"What about them?"
"I heard Julian talking to his mother."
"About me?"
"About what happened at the clinic."
My heart began pounding.
"What happened at the clinic?"
Sophie shook her head.
"I don't know."
That wasn't enough.
But before I could press her, my phone rang.
Rebecca.
The name meant nothing to me at first.
Then I remembered Julian's mention of an adoption social worker.
I answered.
A woman's voice asked if she was speaking to Claire Bennett.
"Yes."
"This is Rebecca. I work with a clinic that has treated you."
I sat very still.
"Why are you calling me?"
There was a pause.
Then she said:
"Because someone named Sophie left something here for you."
Click here to continue reading: PART 3: The Envelope Sophie Left Behind Contained Photographs, Financial Records, and Proof That My Husband Had Controlled My Fertility
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